This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. I wrote yesterday about what it is like to be Catholic with only one child without even realizing that it is Infertility Awareness Week. Infertility comes in many forms from the couple who cannot conceive to people like me who have a child and then suffer repeated miscarriage. …
Being a Catholic Mother of “Only” One Child
When my husband and I got married we figured given our somewhat later age (I was 29 when we got married) that we would have four or five kids. We had undergone a radical conversion while dating thanks to our priest sending us to a Theology of the Body seminar. We finally understood the why …
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Second Sunday of Advent Reflection: Lonely vs Lowly
Last night I went to the Saturday Vigil Mass for the Second Sunday of Advent. A part of the Liturgy of the Eucharist really struck me. I actually misheard our priest who has a Nigerian accent and that mishearing really hit me. During the anaphora, or Eucharistic Prayer, there is a portion in the preface …
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Dealing with Miscarriage Part IV: The Church
  I am sorry to report that the Church does not have an official doctrine on miscarriage and Salvation. Since it is never really mentioned in Revelation, the Church has no official position. If you want to understand how the Church interprets what is in Scripture I suggest reading the Vatican II constitution Dei Verbum. This …
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Dealing with Miscarriage Part III: It’s a Journey
 When I started writing this series on miscarriage, I did not know where it would go.  I just started typing.  I let my heart do the talking and my fingers do the telling.  A friend said to me that writing it down may be a form of healing for me, and I think that she …
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Dealing with Miscarriage Part II: Grief
  Blessed are they who mourn; for they will be comforted. Matthew 5:5Grief is one of the most difficult aspects of life.  We are guaranteed that it will come our way.  Most of the time it blindsides us.  Grief in miscarriage can be lonely, deeply painful, infuriating, and cathartic all in the same day.  The grief …
Dealing with Miscarriage Part I: The Physical Experience
Today was my final blood draw that was the end of a month of bloodwork to figure out why I keep having miscarriages, post-partum depression/anxiety, and severe PMS. Â It was the miscarriages that really led to me finding, or rather she found me, a doctor who was interested in figuring out if I have a …
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For Liam
 I was thinking of you today,while I ate a bowl of noodles.Strange how so small a thing can bring you back.Something as simple as a 19 cent pack of Ramen.Ramen and rice.Was all you seemed to live on.During that time you were my second father.Joy and pain mix in the bottom of the bowl.For you …
Swimming the Depths 