I have gone through my first series of HCG shots. I am getting better at giving myself the shot, which I usually choose to do in my stomach. If I pay attention it does not hurt, but if I do it in a hurry, I bruise myself. The first few days I was feeling a bit better mentally and physically. It’s the pregnancy hormone and I usually feel more balanced when I am pregnant, minus the projectile vomiting. The problem is, that it has not lasted, not that I expected immediate results (that doesn’t mean that some small part of me wasn’t hoping…lol).
I am still struggling with the same severe PMS symptoms: severe anxiety, fatigue, cravings, depression. The HCG has had no impact on these symptoms even though my progesterone levels have risen to “awesome” levels and my estrogen is rising, it just still is not at the goal. My estrogen levels were really low. As my husband explained it to some of our friends, “here is average, here is one step below average, and here is my wife, way down here”.
Here’s the thing, there are no quick fixes, and I was not expecting any. So if you decide to see a NaPro doctor, keep in mind that it will take a while to figure it all out. Body chemistry, especially hormones, are extremely complicated. It is amazing how much they impact our bodies. It can be discouraging, but like me, you have to remember to be patient and not lose hope.
When you have days like today, like the day that I am having, where I am anxious, tired, and depressed, listen to your Guardian Angel and pray. I keep hearing over and over again, “pray, Constance”. Am I doing a very good job of listening? No, but I do know that it is all that I can do and it is the right thing to do. I have been through these kinds of days hundreds of times, so I know that in time, things get better. I also need to learn to cling to the Cross. The Cross is the only thing that will set me free and my Guardian Angel is trying to smack me upside the head. Have you seen this image on Catholic Memes:
Keep up the good fight and remember to fall on Christ. Have a blessed day!
Swimming the Depths 